weird and strange and redundant

what’s the word
for when you unintentionally say
the wrong word
because you are so concentrated on the word that comes after it

and then you look back in regret
because it was
said in a conversation with a man
you have slept with and would like it to turn into something
more
but now
you’ve ruined it
the potential to sound like an intelligent woman
all of if any credit that you have built for yourself
as a mind, the portrayal of a well read mind
is gone
and what is left
is your looks
and wide blue eyes
a dumb and dull woman