big monster

I woke up
and went to the store
where I saw a man
from behind
he was aloof and gentle
the people from the
not here
he reminded of myself
loss
and everyone brought back to me
I realized mid day
that I had lost a few things along the way
grief
it’s never really over
I remembered to cry
while looking in the mirror
this is how I recognize
an emotion and how
it’s all leading to an opening
perhaps
on the edge of a
safety pin